Friday, October 13, 2006

4am in the morning and I can't sleep (Panic Attack)

I have to work tomorrow AND a really important conference call at 10am but I can't seem to go to bed. There is just so much to do!!! Oh my god oh my god oh my god.... Project potentially delayed??? cost overrun??!?!? *panic panic panic*

I ALSO haven't finished studying for my 2 LOMA papers in November and my Japanese paper in December.....*more panic more panic more panic*

Okay, deep breathe...deep breathe. Focus...think one thing at a time. Breathe damnit...BREATHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
*pulls hair, sweaty palms, eyes dilate, cold sweat, stammers...sta sta a aa mers merss merrrsssssss*
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*DEAD silence*
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AND THEN..............................
Person A: "Psstttttttttt, ok, I think the panic attacks are gone. You can come out now..."*looking around furtively*

Person J looks out from the corner of the building, crouching low, eyes bloodshot and wild with worry. "Are you sssssurreeeee? What about Mr big bad tomorrow?? Will the panic attacks return with him....................?"

Note: A day in the life of a STRESSED OUT working-class habitually nocturnal creature. It is very tough....trust me.

1 comment:

cathy said...

i thought no blog about work? haha! i dont think you can escape that. it's like inter-connected chains that make up what life is.

hang in there!

fact: im totally enjoying this style of writing. i didnt know you can write like.. 'that'.